Thoughts

I was doing my devotions today (from Isaiah 40 verses 10 and following) and it got me thinking. God is so powerful, so powerful that He created all we see, so big the ocean is like a drop in a bucket and the nations like grains of sand to Him. Why is it then that we have such a hard time trusting Him? We seem to have no problem trusting Him with our death and all eternity after death, but when it comes to trusting Him with our life, the here and now, well, that's another story. We have our own ideas about what we want and how we think things should happen and we don't want God "messing things up", which is a completely ridiculous idea! God's plans are so much greater and better than our own! But still, that is how we tend to view it. "If I trust God with this area in my life, He'll mess it up and things won't happen the way I want them to or think they should."
Why is it so hard to let go and trust Him? I have found the more I know Him, the easier it becomes, but still is not easy. I still find myself holding back, keeping my hand firmly grasped around an issue while saying, "Here, Lord, I want You to take this," when what I really mean is, "I'm going to let You try this, but if I don't like what You're doing, I'm ready to take it back and do it my own way."
Oh, Lord, give me the faith to trust You wholly!